Poem for Joshua by Ethan When a robin goes near your tree I always think you are with me You are always here with me But today is very, very special to us I want to go to see you every day Because I want you to play Please help me to not get so upset at school I really want to play with you in the pool Written on Joshua's 3rd anniversary

Everything Comes Back To You Everywhere I go, everything I do My thoughts always come back to you A person in the street carrying a child Seeing somebody pushing a pram A family with three healthy kids Your brothers in the pool learning to swim Everywhere I go, everything I do My thoughts always return to you A toddler who's just learnt to walk Children playing in the park A boy in a red jumper off to nursery Undisturbed autumn leaves lying on the ground Everywhere I go, everything I do I think of all the things that you never got to do Going out as a family Watching a film in our front room Sitting alone eating my lunch Walking away from the school on my own Everywhere I go, everywhere I look I'm reminded of the life which meningitis took Your brothers at the bathroom sink brushing their teeth Teenage boys walking past me in a shop Christmas', birthdays, going on our holidays Knowing that I should be applying for your school Everywhere I go, everything I see I think of the person who you never got to be Everywhere I go, everything I do My thoughts, my heart belongs to you Written leading up to Joshua's 3rd anniversary

Poem For Joshua You are gone, the world is colder The warmth of you has left this earth We are alone in this world now We're on the outside looking in Our eyes wide open to human nature We have been stripped bare We see so clearly what we were blind to We are fools no more Others cannot understand the depths of our despair Our sorrow, like a black hole, is never ending and always there We carry you with us always When we are happy, we are sad When we are laughing, we are sad Life now is bittersweet We feel weak, yet we are stronger We want to scream, yet we are quieter Smiles are less, our world is muted Forever lost in thoughts of you Written leading up to what would have been Joshua's 2nd birthday